Je t'adore
Pictures convey all that is. Beauty and love are what binds the simplicity we seek. The pleasure of sight engages the mind into believing truth. The escape to reality is now.
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Do you feel the MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC AHHWOOO
Do you feel the magic in me?
My blog is going to consist of my vision as a prospective event planner. It takes one idea and one glimmer of imagination to create something magnificent. A childhood dream can someday be recreated and reinvented. These ideas can spill limitless moments everywhere. It just takes a choice to make something happen.
Everything you thought was impossible is now possible and boundless.
I find joy in creating a magical world for others to live and relive in forever. Memories are forever and it can’t be taken away. I want to create memories that people remember forever. The things that get my heart to skip a beat are seeing the most beautiful and well thought out ideas come to life. Through hard work, creativity, persistence, imagination, and a great attitude anything can be achieved.
Never stop dreaming.
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To you
I always believed there was one special person for everyone…
For the past six years, I thought that was you.
You were my first love. I didn’t know anything else but you and I realized that was just the problem. You didn’t leave me any room to fall down on my own. By no means would I ever blame you for my sudden absence. I blame experience. I know this distance is hard because I deal without you everyday as well. I didn’t leave because I fell out of love with you. I left because I needed a fairer sight and a broader view from afar. Everyone deserves another chance to love and to be loved. I believe that we are delivered for a purpose of showing a person compassion and love. Once that person has received all that you can give, you move on to show someone else a different and more refined type of compassion and greater love. You take what you learn and make it ten times better. Isn’t that what we are called to do? You have shown me more than anyone else has. But now it’s time to embark on another journey.
Please let me go so I can experience my life full of mistakes, questions, and doubts.
Being in love came so quick and easy for you. For me, it did not. I wanted a life to live and to be free. I was confined to something so quick. I was weak and young. I didn’t know any better. Mistakes came from both ends of our relationship. Every time you broke my heart I blamed myself for not being there enough for you. I never thought I was enough. If I was, you wouldn’t have turned your eyes to other girls. I thought the kind of stuff you did was natural. I kept it a secret between me and you for so long until it became a reoccurring nightmare. You made my life hell at various moments but very joyous at others. I guess you can say the good out weighed the bad because in the end you became a man. Maybe that was my purpose all along… to make you a better man. I couldn’t commit to you in the end because I feared for what had happened in the past. You always tried to make it up to me but I lost hope for you a very long time ago when life was hell. My heart has been broken for five years now and it was too late when you tried to mend the cracks. I never believed or trusted in you since the first time it happened. There was something in your eyes I saw. Your eyes said out loud to me, “Lies, dishonesty, and deception.” That’s something you need to know. Consciously, I have been waiting for this moment to leave you completely. Given the right time and circumstance I left.
You can have everything of mine. As long as I can leave and live another life. You can have our friends, my gifts, and my letters. I need to start a new life that does not involve you. Maybe that’s why I decided to go far away for school… to get away from a life I knew too well. Depressing is the fine definition of knowing that I will never get rid of you completely, not if I want my friends.
So this question stands, how do I disappear without you following in my shadows?
